Random Rantings: Confessions of a Creepy Fan
I’ve been debating on this post all week.
Should I really put myself out there for complete humiliation??
Do I want people to know that I crossed the border into CREEPY???
YES i DO!!!
I am not afraid to expose the errors of my way
to give you all a good laugh at my expense.
and….
possibly prevent you from doing the same if the opportunity arises.
It all started in high school.
I was 15. My first boyfriend was in a band.
From that moment on I was hooked on music, especially the punk scene.
Enter MXPX
I have never felt so connected to a band in my life.
To this day, if I hear any song from any album I get a ridiculous grin on my face! They have such a unique sound and growing up I found it amazing that even though they were known for their beliefs in the christian scene, they were just as legit in the secular world. If you were a punk kid in the late 90s, you had every MxPx album ever recorded and knew every single lyric. You most likely posted their lyrics on your AIM profile every time you got into a fight with your boyfriend. No matter how emo I was feeling about something, MxPx ALWAYS got me off my ass and back in the game.
If I had to call a band home, they would be it.
But let’s be real here. Do you see the guy in the middle of that photo? Yeah, that’s Mike Herrera and he is freaking hot. A real chick magnet. Some girls liked Brad Pitt, others Leonardo DiCaprio, but not me. My heart belonged to Mike! In college, I went to a gross diner all the time just because the owner’s son was a total doppelgänger.
You guys know me. Do you SEE his tattoos?? His piercings?
Have you HEARD his voice??
SWOOOOON
Almost every boyfriend I ever dated was in a band. A couple of them had some gigs at events like Cornerstone and Warped Tour, so I am no stranger to meeting musicians, but MxPx is different.
(that’s mr. betty on the far left!!)
Here I am below in my MxPx hoodie. One summer when my boyfriend (now husband!) was on tour with his band, I left this hoodie in Tennessee. I realized it about 3 hours into my drive back home and you better believe I turned around and went back for it! That’s how serious my love for MxPx was!
But, as time went on… Life in General happened.
I graduated college.
I got married.
I had 2 kids.
Sure, I still went to a show now and then, but everything had changed. Music was now on the back burner and I really didn’t think about it too much, at least not like I did.
I started this blog about a month ago and decided to participate in the Book Bloggers Love-A-Thon to meet other book rockers. One of our challenge posts involved making a playlist for a book. Of course…. that triggered my trip down memory lane. I busted out my old MxPx albums. I even tweeted about it and get this…
Mike Herrera TWEETED me!
It was CRAZY. I never in my mind thought I would have any form of communication with that guy.
HELLOOO… he was the heart-throb of my entire teenage existence.
i totally blushed at my computer screen
I tweeted him back a couple times, but then I had a moment. A moment where I was creepy.
I mean, seriously… I met Chase Utley… had his arm around me and I barely flinched (okay, that’s a lie, but it wasn’t obvious!), yet I get a tweet from Mike Herrera and I was starstruck. I discovered he recently had a baby and that melted my heart! So I did what any creepy fan would do.
I googled his wife.
(hey… he had a baby… i wanted to know the details!)
I clicked on her blog.
(yes, creeeeepy.)
Did I stop there like any normal human being would??
NO I DID NOT.
(yeah, freaaaaking creepy.)
I left a comment on her blog.
(pretty sure it’s because I was high on the fact that she has a goodreads widget– BOOK ROCKER whaaat!?)
Enough, right?? NO—- I took a full blown dive into creepy and
I tweeted Mike about it.
(oh yes i did.)
After I hit the tweet button I felt sick. I reread what I wrote and thought…
some words are better left unsaid
What would a creepy fan do next??? DAMAGE CONTROL.
I deleted the tweet.
(which probably made it more creepy in the case that he already saw it)
I put it behind me. (kind of)
A few days later, I had spotify open and decided to listen to some MxPx.
I had to turn it off.
(All I could hear Mike singing was—- YOU ARE CREEPY. YOU ARE CREEPY)
He started a podcast and I wanted to listen.
(I couldn’t do it! I felt like a creepy stalker that tapped his phone line.)
So here I am.
Time stands still when no one understands you, but tomorrow is another day.
I can finally die happy knowing that Mike Herrera of MxPx knows I exist…
EVEN IF HE THINKS I’M CREEPY.
Mike, if you ever read this. I am not creepy. I am just a long time fan that thinks you’re pretty awesome.
Thanks for everything.
Encore:
I beg of you all….
If you even get the slightest urge to do something like this….
What a fantastic post, I laughed through the whole thing. I loved your gif explanations! Nicole and I are just starting to use Twitter since we started blogging so we have not had any chances to awkTweet yet
awkTweet. i.love.that. hahaha well… once you do, please share! it’s definitely……. somethin else.
haha love it! I’m glad to know I’m not alone. When I went to my first book signing I climbed over purses and jackets to get behind the table to take a picture with Taherah Mafi…nothing was getting in my way. Afterwards my cousin who’s not bookish was like “ya no one else did that…” haha but she didn’t understand how awesome Taherah is. My creepiness was totally justified lol.
you make me proud!! Taherah Mafi is def worthy of that behavior!
Hahahaha we are kindred spirits! I’m totally a Google creeper!! I freak out when anyone even remotely famous tweets at me.
we are too cool for words. hahaha
Oh, Betty, you are awesome! This made me laugh the whole time I was reading it and I was nodding my head saying “that’s totally me!” too. Not creepy at all…just a dedicated fan is all!
DEDICATED FAN. i def prefer that spin on it….
Oh I love this so much. So much.
I was a big fan in high school and skipped school to see a show with my husband. Well, now he’s my husband. This is hilarious. I love it so much. I’ve always wanted to go to Cornerstone, BTW. Lucky dog. I’m not close enough.
i went every summer for years. it was seriously so much fun minus the porta potty lines and ice cold showers. so many good memories. haha
Awww that’s so adorable, haha. It’s perfectly understandable, I mean, getting starstruck like that… I kind of feel this way when an author replies to my tweets. I spend like 5 minutes thinking okay, how to phrase this reply so I sound totally cool and not at all like I’m freaking out which is what’s ACTUALLY HAPPENING. xD
Bonus points for the Doctor Who gif
thanks for your honesty debby. haha you are all making me feel so much better about this. maybe i’m not creepy after all?
Not creepy at all– thank you for commenting on my blog! I haven’t been very good at keeping up with it over the last year or so but I’m trying to remedy that. Now, of course, there will be lots of baby posts and photos. Life’s definitely changed! Thanks for checking in and reaching out to us. Keep in touch.
aww, you’re awesome. your comment is just what i needed. feeling a lot less creepy now.
thanks for reading!! i can’t guarantee that i won’t peek at your blog (maybe even comment) from time to time. 
This post totally made me smile! I’m a total fangirl for my favorite bands (at the moment, that’s the Script!) and actors (hello Ian Somerhalder) so I get excited at any mention of them. Though I haven’t quite reached the awesome fan level you have, I can guarantee I’ve done some silly things too!
haha… yeah, definitely embarrassing. it’s so silly to let people make us feel this way– after all, they are JUST PEOPLE!
i honestly feel that i twitter stalk Rainbow Rowell. i respond to nearly everything she tweets. And then I met her and couldn’t get a coherent word out of my mouth. i feel your pain. this is totally something i would do. i am sure he’s had much worse/less-well-meaning things happen to him. i’m glad you were brave enough to come out of the closet and serve as an example to us all.
it always feels good to confess. hahaha hope you feel better as well. rainbow rowell is awesome though… def worthy of a creepy fan or two.